Hard, understandable changes

 Hey guys, I am back! Lying on my bed last night I don’t know why but my mind went on philosophical mode and suddenly you know aha! realisation  dawned on me (I know this philosophical track is a bit goody-goody but..)

Stopped! Just stopped! This is exactly what happened to our lives. Coronavirus stopped us in our tracks. We just stopped going out of the house! But now we are seeing light at the end of the tunnel. Vaccines are finally here. You know, during mid-lockdown if someone had asked me how I would feel once we were safe again, I would have danced with joy and would have rushed out of the house like a maniac. But now, I am not so sure... I mean sure I am really happy but kinda disappointed that I won’t get to attend school online from the comfort of home.

See, what I noticed this lock down was that while adults became self reliant ( reluctantly!), students became reliant on tech.  We forgot our own schedules and principles. We started using google during the tests, playing games during class, making an excuse of internet availability to escape classes (hey don’t judge!) and so on... There was no concept  school dress and now I simply detest my school uniform (hey try pairing red and golden brown and then judge).  I think that now for me the biggest challenge will be to become the version of me before lockdown. But then we are better off compared to adults who have to now  meet their bosses daily, face to face🤣 (no pun intended..)

Initially, all my  friends were disappointed  that we couldn’t socialize and have that school masti (during the interval).  So we formed  whatsapp group  for sharing jokes, anecdotes and discover new gaming  platforms.. It was fun. But  after  a while, it began to get monotonous.  I was bored to tears the whole of last year  and just as I was getting used to the laziness ta-da! Vaccines are here.  

On the flip side, during the lockdown I got to develop my baking skills, sketching skills and tried many things you know, the things I usually am not able to do.  

I guess this is the  MES- mixed emotion syndrome. I really don’t know what to think. Sometimes I want to be out in the open whereas other times I don’t want to even get out of bed. I haven’t been this confused even in my history paper.  While I gained  some ( including weight) and  lost some during lockdown, my  heart goes out to  migrant labor  who walked across the country in lockdown, those who starved, those who died.   My heart goes out to families of frontline Covid warriors who made immense sacrifices for the country.  This makes me feel guilty as well. But as they say, people like me act upon noble thoughts like these only in movies.

The gradual lifting of lockdown  makes me feel  better and I am sure million will get their lives back on track and it will be business as usual or will it be! Fingers crossed. Do comment on how you are feeling due the arrival of the vaccine. 

Catch ya later!